silents reader :)

when i opened this blog,, i just can't stop reading and reading and reading his writings.. nice and feel amaze when thinking that he's also a Malay guy and he's 21 but the way he thought,, the way he writes in English were extremely superb ! i like his writing...



this is some sort of his writing.. =]

Today out of sheer boredom I thought of what have I done (mostly) over the course of this 21 years and counting, or on what-ifs scenarios if I were to rewind the clock, and somewhat in between I just play along with the line. Or at least that's what I believe I did.

Confronting the past. Looking back to where I've been was never easy. I've had some pretty f'ed up childhood past, moments of glory, rough falls, and all that spices of life that in a way made me who I am today. And don't ask why, the ghost of my past never fails to make me contemplate this over and over.

I've known losses, I've tasted defeats, gained some victories, and I am still pursuing winnings. Throughout this ever changing path I've taken I've always had make some changes. On me. On who I am. On who I was. On who I am supposed to be. I guess everyone pretty much does the same, right?

But somehow over the line of thoughts, I looked back; sometimes way back, to see how much I've changed. To see how much these waves and tides had drowned me or washed me ashore, to know whether I'm changing into pearls or oysters, to acknowledge how much I have achieved over what I want to achieve, to test whether I conquered my fear of the past; or whether it conquered me, and to see how far have I run from all those that matter to me back then.

I never wanted to run away, just that I had too.
I once said in order to move forward, we have to look back. To see how far we have gone. To see how much we had accomplished. However, I do feel like taking my words back.
















Because right now when I turn around, I'm not sure whether I walked out of my past. Or just hanging there on the brink with nowhere left to go.

P/S: I don't know why I'm writing crap but there's no one reading anyways. Nah, who cares.. toodles !

#1 Lass !

heyyo Assalammualaikum =]

today's topic is.......................................................................... i don't know !

don't know do not know and i really do not knowww what i should babbling to you right now hehe.. but i had pick a word from my old dictionary which is................ lass !

haaa never heard that word before huh???  hehe lass means a lady.. gadis.. or others called it as lassie.. 

have u ever watch across "brave" movie cartoon?? in this movie,, u can heard the father of the girl called his daughter as lass... 

u know what.. instead of aaaaaaaall other cartoon movies,, this movie is the only one that touched my heart.. somehow,, when i watched this movie,, i cried.. yuppp.... it just the same like u watching a very warm and hearty touchy love story.. yup ! same like that.. u may cry once u watch it with full attention and FOCUS ! listen carefully to all its word.. not too difficult to understand for student especially.. try to not look at the subtitle.. maybe a little bit dificult to understand but actually if u listen to it carefully, then u'll understand... let's try yeah??!! hehe =]

and there's one more word i want to share.. do you know what's the meaning of "wee"

Wee means a child.. same goes to a daughter or a son.. =]

alright my wee darling.. till we meet again.. toodles !

sewing~!

Assalammualaikum :)

hai.. hehe lame sungguh aku tak hapdate ini blog.. bukan dilupain,, cuma macam kebizian sikit.. almaklum lah sekarang ni aku tengah semester 5,, memang ramai kate makin naik sem makin kurang subjek,, akan tetapi.... subjek yang ada pun berat-berat makkk~~~ huhu

tak pe.. pasal study,, kita bincang aca-kemudian ea... :)

sekarang aku nak kongsi sikit pasal SEWING atau bahasa melayu nya,, menjahit.. tahu menjahit??

mesti anda-anda lebih terror hebat terhebat kan dalam bab menjahit ni.. aku ni baru je belajar2 menjahit.. mula nya dari lepas raya hari tu la.. mula jinak-jinak dalam bidang jahit ni.. basic tu memang ade.. sebelum ni setakat nak jahit baju koyak tu memang boleh.. jahit ape nak,, sebut je.. tapi bab nak jahit sehelai baju complete up side down memang belum reti lagi...

RAYA 2013

siap dua pasang baju kurung~! yezza,, boleh lah pakai utk bawak pergi kuliah.. selesa and puas hati sebab hasil kerja tangan sendiri...

MIDSEM (1 nov-10nov)

siap lagi dua pasang blouse labuh hehe... alhamdulillah hasil sendiri jugak.. 

seronok sebab dapat belajar buat baju sendiri... raya tahun depan boleh la jahit baju raya sendiri.. tak perlu dah kot nak tempah baju mahal2 kat luar.. :) 

itu sahaja dari kami ... 

sekian :)

sape nak order baju tu boleh lahh hubungi no di talian 

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hehe babai~ 

Assalammualaikum :)

new journey.. one step forward! :)

salam... long time no see... hehe miss me?? maybe not... maybe yess.. aw! so touching hehe.. btw hows life??? happy??sad??exhausting??extremely excited?? wow.. impressive.. everybody have different thoughts i guess.. nevermind.. even it so, remember to smile yeah?? n dont ever forget Him.. He's the best listener... trust Him.. always do...  =]

hmm u see my last post?? wow! 2months ago.. fuhhhhhh bersawang! owhh my sweet little blog.... poor blog... i'd never come here since i started my final examination for the 2nd year... n now... ehemmmm third year student!! hehe yes! i'll become the senior hehe... sounds great... but actually not very great.. years become harder n harder n harder! n still i'm the very lazy girl EVER!! alahaiii!!

"dear myself,
now u're already in third year.. please be matured and think bout the future,, your parent's hope on u,, ur ambiton yada yada... please please pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~ help yourself my dearest~! i'm begging begging begging....!"

haii.. me myself dunno what happened to me... lost i guess... trying to find myself recently.. and alamdulillah,, now slowly i know what i actually want and what i should do to grab that all things.. thanks to Him <3 div="">

forgot that! know what i'm doing for my semester break???? hee know??? or dont knoww??? wanna know???

guys! 

wanna know something??? hehe now i still in learning progress in sewing and cooking!!

2weeks class in sewing totally give me something,, u also can book me to sew you baju kurung in the future... wow! my income! **wink3xx hehe 

and dear husband *no hubby yet ~ ngeee :P

i'll cook for u nanti! yes! 

delicious,, marvelous... thats will come out from ur mouth!... i hope i hope i hope~~

n lastly! mommy!!!! i wanna get married!!!! tskkkk meroyan! haha just kidding..hehe toodles guys...

actually...feeling very grateful to Him cause giving me a very great wonderful sweet and gorgeous parents in the world... i feel so relieve to help in lighting their burdens in their shoulder,, even though it was just a small help,, but i know,, even they did not mention it... i love them so much... no others can replace them.. somehow,, i wanna help them some more in the future by giving them my degree... owhh mom n dad.... wait for me please... be my supporters.. i need u by my side... muahx! =]

hey wait! i got some pictures for u.. enjoy it... dont deny it yeahhh hehe bai! "^____^!Vv <3 div="">

 hohoho meet the shortest gil in the family haha =p 

owhhhh my fairly bot,,,, come and brin my prince.. whooomph! there it is! ehehe 

finish!!!!!! boommmm kebabommm!!! lol hehe toodles.... n___n <3 nbsp="">

“A real man is not the one who can court you in public. Or the one who can say to the world how much he loves you. Rather, a real man is the one who can hide his feelings pretending that he doesn’t care but deep inside during his sujood, he’s asking you from Allah SWT.” -Quote-

life like a wheel

assalammualaikum and holla!

june june june and JUNE! its already 7 june!.. sekejap je rase nye.. and exam fever!!! 

ok back to the topic.. 

last week i met someone.. a girl.. start from the top!

her hair shoulder cut.. eyes uuuu sexy.... 

face like a modern malay girl.. 

ok the climax! come the abdomen!wht??!! she's holding a baby.. 

baby you guys! baby.. i really really loveeeee babies..... 

ok.. that time i got teeny tiny heart attack once i saw her with the baby... cute baby.. a boy.. name i dont know... baru 4hari lahir.. very small... his face still in red... ooooo cute sgt! gigit telinga baru tahu... 

"dhhhaa young lady~~ ape kaitan dengan topic ni plak?"

the thing is,, i dont want to say... 

evil me of course wants to spread it out to the whole WORLD! butttt... my inner heart still say NO.. kejam tahu tak dedahkan kesalahan orang..

okay.. i'm sorry.. i just want to make it as a lesson for me and to the others... thats all..

whatever it is,, matlamat tak menghalalkan cara ok.. tak kisah lah kalau niat kau baik sekalipun tapi tetap dedahan aib orang! nak ke kalau kat akhirat nanti Allah dedahkan aib kau plak??!!!

ok baba... ok... enough talking... sory guys! aku tak mention sesiapa... 

the topic..

life like a wheel...

what goes around will come around.... 

 

what you give you get back....

ps : tak berani nak cakap sesiapa.. takot2 nanti aku pulak buat benda yang sama... tak mahu~~~!! nauzubillah ya Allah.... aminnnn....

mesti tak faham ape kebende aku cakap dalam entri ni.. hehe ignore!

toodles... 

assalammualaikum... :)

and DONT do it at home~! !@#$%^&*

first impression

Assalamualaikum

readers and followers....kaifa halukum?

girls yang camni selalunye dilabel ganas kann?

seorang gadis yang sangat ayu berbaju kurung. bertudung litup. duduk dengan sopannye atas bangku. kene usha pun wat dunno je. tunduk je. hurm. gadis melayu terakhir kot. minum air botol pun pakai straw. makan pun  kunyah slow2. wakaka. sejuk je hati makcik2 nengok. siap dah cop nak wat calon menantu. haduihh.

tengah syok2 makan uh, hanset berbunyi. cepat2 dia angkat.

"woi sial!! ko katne haa? what? apesal lambat sangat neh? celaka tol lahh. lahanat bla...bla...&#*%"

wowwee. longgar rahang makcik2 yang tadi duk sibuk melabelkan gadis tu as pempuan melayu terakhir.

(cite kat atas takde kena mengena dengan sesape pun)



haha. tu diaa first impression. ok lari!



*haha enrty mengarut// sorry being rude.. hehe .. kbai!

[tak payah susah2 nak jadi cantik]

assalamualaikum

readers and followers. kaifa halukum?

agak2 ade agi tak orang yang sudi masuk blog ni?


ok tamat.
back to the tittle above.

perempuan memang sinonim ngan kecantikan kan? kalau tak ngadap cermin sehari memang tak sah la kann. takut sangat klu tudung tu berkelepet. takut sangat klu mekap dah cair. haha.

cantik dan kelihatan cantik tu benda yang sama ke? nope. bagi aku lain lah. kenape? meh sini aku nak gitau. untuk ape sebenarnya kita nak jadi cantik? untuk tatapan mata lelaki? tak payahlah. buang masa. bina keyakinan diri? urm. jaga penampilan pun boleh bina keyakinan diri.

semua manusia tu diciptakan cantik. ade rupa yang tersendiri. ikut genetik family masing2 lah. tapi setiap manusia yang diciptakan tu mestilah ade kelebihan yang tersendiri kan. kire bonus la klu ade raut wajah yang menawan. raut wajah ayu. tak perlu kot nak describe camne cantik tu sebab cantik tu kan subjektif? bak kate orang, memang tak sah klu dipandang sekali je. pergi mane2 pun jadi perhatian. ramai yang nak berkenalan. senang dapat kawan.

"perghh. awek tu cun siot."

"untuglaa sape yang dapat awek tu. senyuman dia...mak aihh..."

ade gurls yang rase diri dia tak cantik. oh pleas lahh. janganlah risau. believe me. kita dah diciptakan cantik. belajar untuk terima diri seadanya. bersyukur at least korang ada muka yang perfect. so tak payah main compare2 ni. tak payah nak mekap2 sangat. jadi je diri yang sebenar. tapi janganlah sampai nampak selekeh! kita ni perempuan. so kekemasan tu sangat penting. asalkan sedap mata memandang dah la kan?

kenape nak mekap tebal2 sampai 14 inci? kenape nak pakai tudung lilit2 bagai macam nak terjerut leher? untuk ape? untuk kelihatan cantik? peh. aku tengok bese je. nothing special. tak salah nak pakai mekap. tak salah nak pakai lilit2 pun. but pleas lah. ada batasnye kan. ikutlahh garis panduan syariat. tak susah pun lah!

"perempuan tu bukan cantik sangat pun. tapi ramai lak yang duk usha dia. grr "

"muka dia bese2 je kan. tapi klu senyum, manis je. sejuk mata memandang."

"dia simple je tapi ade something yang special pasal dia"

"tau lah cantik tapi tak payahlahh nak menggedik2!"

kecantikan tu boleh jadi satu bonus. boleh jugak jadi satu musibah kalau disalahgunakan. depends kat kita lahh. tanya iman kita. =)

oh ye. aku ade satu cite. ade sorang budak tu. dia tu seorang yang sangat simple. tak pandai pun nak bergaya macam perempuan lain. tapi dia bukan tomboy. tak mainlahh pakai high heel. tak pandai nak buat muka comel time ambik gambar. haha. tapi kan. ade jugak  seorang lelaki yang berkenan kat dia. nak tau ape laki tu buat? laki tu jumpa terus parent dia. alhamdulillah. tunggu masa je kot nak disambungkan ikatan. =D

see?

kecantikan tak semestinya menjamin yang jodoh tu sentiasa ada. setiap perempuan tu ade kecantikan yang tersendiri even dia tak termasuk dalam kategori cantik pada pandangan orang lain. tak cantik pada pandangan manusia pun takpe. usahalah untuk jadi cantik pada pandangan Allah. cantik dengan akhlak dan taqwa. yakin pada diri anda sendiri.

biarlah kita tak pandai bergaya pun. biarlah kita dikatakan tak up-to-date pun. biarlah kita dikatakan tak cantik pun.

KITA TETAP CANTIK
pada mereka yang memandang dengan mata hati
tak berlandaskan nafsu semata2
pada mereka yang halal untuk memandang kita
lagi cantik jika
kita touch-up kan iman dan peribadi kita
dengan memelihara syariat
=)

*good looking give u everything, but personality captured one heart.

sharing! ^^

doa dapat yg terbaik dari Nya.. He's the best planner ever! =] 

1st class !@#$%^&*()_+

** hai everyone... =] its time for the class... my class actually...  as i mention before,, i'm gonna share something with u...  something that i need to refresh since ever i've been running far2x away from the train...  i have to get out of this cloud and find the way back home...  the truly home.. know what i mean.. =] **

so.. the first step is,, hygiene.. hygiene is very important..  Personal hygiene is desirable at all times but certain aspects of personal hygiene are not only important but also compulsory. 

Prophet Muhammad, may the mercy and blessings of Allah be upon him,  informed his companions and thus all of us, about the importance of cleanliness when he said,  “cleanliness is half of faith.”

the 2nd class !@#$%^&*()_+

wuduk... air sembahyang... we perform wuduk to make us clean for performing solat... there's steps in the pic above... tapi kalau nak clear lagi... i already type it for u.. =]

the steps are :-

• make niat to perform wudu'
• say the following in your heart "bismillah" -in the name of Allah-
• wash your hands [Use your left hand to wash your right hand (3 times). After that, using your right hand, wash your left hand. (3 times).]
• Wash your whole mouth & upper part of throat Do this thoroughly to get all the remaining food in your mouth out. (3 times).
• Inhale (or "throw") water into your nose. After which you will blow the water out. (3 times)
• Wash your face completely by spreading your hands from your right ear to the left, and from the edge of the hair to the chin.(3times)
• Wash your lower arms from wrists to elbows,leave no part dry Wash your right arm with your left hand (3 times) and then wash your left arm with your right hand (3 times)
• Wipe your head. Using your wet hands, just gently wipe your head from front to back and back to front (once).
• Wipe your ears inside and out by putting finger in all crevices of ear and thumb behind it, wiping down.
• Wash each of your feet. Do so up to the ankles (3 times)and be sure water goes between the toes. Or instead you can perform mas-h, if you have the needed requirements for doing it.
• Recite the following: 

Ash-hadu allaa ilaaha illallaahu wahdahuu laa shariikalah, wa ash-hadu anna Muhammadan 'abduhuu wa rasuuluh
"I bear witness that there is no God but Allah alone, without any partner, and I bear witness that Muhammad (peace be upon him) is his servant and messenger."

• perform solat =]

dear self,
now u've started learning bout something...
try to make it good for u yah..
hidayah... remember that..always...
remember your parents.. do it for them..
and of course.. for yurself..

hei.. i've got some tips for u.. It was the practice of the Prophet (SAW) to brush his teeth before performing wudu. it is his sunnah.. =] jom brush our teeth before wudu' n sebelum solat,, pakai wangi2x,, cantik2x... nak jumpa dgn Allah kan..

thats all for the class today... sorry for the overloaded post... tadaaa~! =]

#82 buzy like a Bee Queen!

oyla! hehe  very nice to see you here . arghhh very miss to babbling in here . u miss me too? of course NOT right haha . maybe true , maybe not . ok , forget .
nowadays , i'm not tooooo free to write in this old diary of mine . becauseeeee . now i'm in the middle of semester , and final is around the corner . so! playing not . started to be a serious woman . should be . but . i being a serious girl . me not likely . i'm not that kind of girl . sometimes yes . hehe depends on my mood .


im sorry . thats why i'm heree . to say that precious word hehe .  coz i'm not too able to reply your hit on my cbox . but , i give u my word . when i'm very3x free like a bird ,  in sya Allah , i will! follow u guys . ok ? hehe pliz . don't be boring to be here . whatnot i know its boring . and annoying hehe but , even like that , i still wanna write .



anyhoo, i'm very nervous right now . coz i'm not prepared myself for the final! there's sooooo many to attempt . arghhhhh stress!
dont be . aku tak per .. biar aku stress sensorg,, jerit mcm org giler kat sini.. haha 

my pen's dying.  tudels guys! babai =]